The Discovery of Deep Betrayal – What Does It Feel Like? By Felicia L. Reed
As I started to grow more into my life purpose and have a desire to see life aspects in multi-dimensions and not just in the narrow and controlled views my family or others wanted me to, my intuition sharpened and I could remember moments in time where I had ignored the ping, the chill, the ache, the delay, the grumble in my belly, the sign and symbols that had been sent to warn me. Part of this heightened sense of awareness was the reflection of those times where harm, betrayal, hurt, pain, suffering came to me in warnings before the event ever occurred. A test of my intuition would come at 51 years of age so strong and forceful that I would forever change my life. It would show up in front of dark and concerning betrayal involving those who were supposed to protect me and those who lived close by.
The call came that Wednesday, “I just want to verify your garage and alarm codes and make sure you know I will be there hanging the blinds and fan you wanted installed on FRIDAY. What time will you be home? OH I <we> will be done before that time.” I thought it was unusual that this person actually called me and had me repeat the codes that were locked in memory and noted in several places. It was a very unusual call but I ignored the uneasiness. Friday came and I was jolted between 10 and 11am. I became anxious. I didn’t want to call the person that was doing the work as I did not want to disturb them. I made plans to go home for lunch as something just wasn’t right. Not wanting to make trips back and forth, I asked my father if he could go by the house around 12pm and check on things because I was having some work done. He had an appointment. I got called into a brief meeting and plans had to be changed. The universe knew that neither one of us needed to be there that day.
That evening when we arrived home, we felt it the moment we entered the house. Something wasn’t right. There were smells and lights on and other indications that didn’t fit into work involving having a ceiling fan and blinds installed in the Master Bedroom. Things were amiss for sure. We both felt it. I didn’t want to show my concern and shook it off. After all, this was a person we deeply trusted so I can’t be feeling what I’m feeling. However, as I entered the Master Bedroom I noticed indentions on the bed and air that was suffocating. I touched the spot and it was hot. It was at that moment that I would later confirm/affirm that I was absolutely sensitive to energy of others. I looked around and noticed the trash from the boxes of the blinds and fan. I looked up and the fan was incomplete. It was unusual. Something was definitely wrong. I became worried and even more worried at what we later discovered. I placed a call to the person we trusted so deeply. My exact words were “What happened here today in our home?” It just came out. What I meant to say was “Is everything okay because this is not your normal work. You are usually meticulous and orderly and complete. You would normally call and say you couldn’t finish. You would normally take great care of us OR appear to do so. This is not like you.” Spirit knew and it blurted out what I needed to ask….”what happened to cause such a dark betrayal of our trust?” I was actually questioning myself as well. The person stuttered and stumbled over their words and I became more concerned about them rather than us as in perhaps they were ill. We arranged for the work to be completed the next day. Normally, they would have come by that evening. They would have driven by our house no less than 5 times. They would have enjoyed porch sitting as they admired the job they did for us. Something was definitely wrong and it would never again be “right”. We had been violated in a horrific way and it would be a process of learning just how deep the violation and betrayal was. I discovered and verbally affirmed with the participants that a vendetta had been executed. It involved an ex partner I had separated from a year and half earlier, neighbors and family. It would be the ultimate test of intuition. I couldn’t say I didn’t know it. I was just being protected and I had to allow what I couldn’t stop unfold. I had to be shown who people are and what they will do.
How does deep concerning betrayal feel? It’s actually shock. It takes over the mind, body and the spirit. Your protective forces go into overdrive and you are swaddled in a numbness that mesmerizes you. It impacts your physical state in ways that no one can describe. It’s not a rage. You actually travel to a place to deal with the truth and you leave the present. Your being becomes enveloped in a “bubble wrap” and you can’t move your arms or your legs. You start to question everything. Your sense of smell, taste, touch and awareness is incredible as the brain and body chemicals go into overdrive. You can see and “feel” things that you’ve never notice before as reality sets in. You see more from the inside versus the outside. You notice details like time and numbers and placement of things. You can read people like you are inside of them and not yourself. You become transformed. Inside the “bubble wrap” is where you are spiritually being protected from the betrayal and not being allowed to respond to it in a physical state. The physical state is rage, revenge, outbursts and more. When I found myself responding in those capacities I was quickly snapped back and placed into the “bubble wrap”. Inside the “bubble wrap” is where you shed the impact and conditioning – you shed the shock of the betrayal as you travel deep inside SELF to heal. Getting over it does not exist on the outside. You have to find what you need on the inside.
The events that coincided and followed with that initial revelation would be astounding. Although, this person violated our home along with the support and participation of others, they would STILL remain as a “trusted friend” helping with other chores….a basketball court for my son, reinstalling electrical outlet covers, appearing in the grocery store at the same time and continuing business as usual. Masters of Deception have to honor the code of deceiving others so they may continue as well as not get caught for their actions. They have to continue to feed on their frenzy. Most people wouldn’t or couldn’t survive what I uncovered. They couldn’t fathom the events and the people involved. I turned deep within to shut out the betrayal and recreated myself to peel off what was placed on me and went to work on healing a life of abuse, trauma, betrayal and being used. I brought everything of the same theme of betrayal to the surface and dealt with it. I then went on to build a small empire of helping others to deal with the same.
Years of healing work, centering with God and unconditioning would reveal my true life purpose and gifts that had been buried so deep. Although I had known of these qualities, it was inside the “bubble wrap” that I honored them and called them to my new present state and worked with them to move me forward. What happens when you discover betrayal that is cunning and seriously deceptive as in reality is NOT reality? You are being made an example. The choices related to the event(s) of betrayal are yours. Either you can teach good lessons and allow others to show you how you don’t want to be OR you can become like them – a member of the Masters of Deception league to hurt and harm others. Betrayal doesn’t feel great at all by ANY means. However, you don’t have to own what others do. It’s not yours and nor are you responsible for the bad behavior of others so don’t internalize it. Find your “bubble wrap” and heal the shock and get your energy cleaned up and move forward with newness. Let the universe take care of you and what was placed on you as it works through the Law of Attraction and Karma. Focus on you and not what was done.
Betrayal never comes from your enemies. It comes from those that are closest to you. Be careful who you trust and who you hang around. Honor your intuition.
About Felicia Reed
Felicia Reed is Founder and Owner of Put It In Perspective, LLC.
Ms. Reed is a certified Life Purpose, Spiritual and Christian Coach (member of the International Coach Federation) as well as a Holistic Wellness Advocate with proven results. She works with groups and individuals to promote positive and constructive life changes and infuses the use of energy healing, the use of essential oils as well as other modalities. She has a firm belief that the better we feel, the better we are able to live productive lives. Ms. Reed is a survivor of several life-altering traumatic experiences where she firmly believes that coaching and self-healing saved her life. She understands building the required determination and desire through difficult times to move forward. She works to provide coaching services to clients virtually and primarily in the Washington, DC metropolitan area.
In addition, Ms. Reed has over 20 years of process engineering experience which includes 15 years of financial management experience. She has served at both the state and local education levels to provide process improvement support. Ms. Reed is a quality management professional who works to infuse best practices in large organizations as well as personal lives through coaching and mentoring. Her credentials include: Certified Continual Improvement Associate, Certified Internal Auditor, Certified Lead Auditor-AS9100/ISO 9001:2008, ISO 20000, Certified Malcolm Baldrige Examiner, Certified CMMI Auditor and Process “Engineer”. Ms. Reed is committed to life learning and participates in an array of different learning environments to stay abreast on techniques and trends in the coaching and quality fields.
Ms. Reed has a strong desire to give back and has served on various boards and community service programs as a key volunteer and activist. Currently, she supports many local and national organizations in the areas of wellness and quality. She has been passionate about sharing quality management concepts with everyone she touches. She’s certain that these quality management tools also make great life purpose tools and therefore, helps others to apply these techniques to achieve positive results. After all, LIFE IS A PROCESS and we are all trying to get from Point A to Point B and beyond.
Ms. Reed resides in Maryland but works globally to make a difference. Her client base spans from California to Russia. The Put It In Perspective website is www.putitinperspective.net. The company FaceBook page is https://www.facebook.com/putitinperspectivellc. Her team can be reached at firstname.lastname@example.org.